-Pondering over Shams we Choose to Believe In-

You didn't stay then, I'll take it you had your reasons

I'm gonna fly too.. because it hurts to be in such loveless liaisons

I can't be stuck in this muck; knowing

That you hate me; It suffocates me

And every word you said... to show how much you care

Was a sham

I believed in it;

Maybe that's why I'm hating myself so much sometimes these days...

Every thought of that encounter; which made me flounder

Looking over my lone shoulder for some sympathy

Makes me pity, and not like myself, all the more

I'm gonna fly, away.

I gotta free myself from the bonds that you lay on me,

Claiming it to be what mattered the most; before you walked away

without a trace

without a grudge

without a shred of guilt

I believed it all.

(Insane and unreal as it seemed!)

Never will I believe again.

And I wonder, if it will help me like myself...

If it will help me not hate myself...