It's easy to be cynical. It's easy to go on and on about how sad you feel and all that you find wrong with this world.
But it takes a lot to stand up and acknowledge how glad you are to be here, to have all that you have to do, and a lot more to look forward to.
For the past few days, I've been very happy, very very happy... for some reason, or none at all!
And yet I haven't been able to come up with a decent post to express this...
Which led me to think that maybe that isn't just the case with one blog post. That maybe even in general I have a hard time accepting that things are alright.
Almost as if I feel more comfortable surrounded by clutter, with things that I still have to fix...
And that I would feel incomplete without them. Because if I cleared them out, I'd have to move forward.. and maybe I don't know how to do that.. maybe I'm scared to do that.
And so this happiness doesn't feel fulfilling.. It feels like a fool's bliss, 'cos I'm not really going where I want to, and that I'm happy being stuck at where I'm at.
Knowing that time's passing, and people are moving on, I'm just fixed right here... pretending to be happy and content, when I know in my heart... that it's not all that I want.
I don't just want to be happy.... I want to be miserable.. I want to work hard, move around and even be frustrated at times.
I want to feel busy, feel tense, be quiet and think about some real problems.
Most of all, I just want to get somewhere...... even if it kills me.
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one thing that came to my mind instantly... that i can't blame you for not being able to come up with a title for this one :-)
Also, I think this can be a good example of a characteristic trait of human beings... wherever we are, we want to be somewhere else. If we are sad, we wanna be happy... if we are happy, we wanna be miserable.. if we are home, we want to go out.. if we are out, we want to go home... it never ends! what say?
haha..exactly why i thought i'd title it.. "you always want what u dont have"... but didnt sound too good, so i thought i'd think some more, or let ppl suggest something!
the eternal grass is greener somewhere else syndrome, isnt this?
:)
why dont you just enjoy "being"?
:) :)
@Me: As siddy said, being human, it is in our nature to want what we don't have.. and maybe it is a good thing too.
Beacuse if we just remained satisfied with having what we had, and being what we were, we would never want to change, to learn, to move forward from where we were in life.
So, being as glad as I am "being", I want MORE than that. I hope you do too... it's a good thing.
@ Kriti...
So now that you've said that you are "very very happy" and glad in "being" and looking forward in life wanting MORE, is it time to change the name of this blog now??? Or will you try to find some philosophical loop holes trying to connect even happiness to being uncomfortably numb??? :-)
heyyyy... a possible appropriate title for this post just struck me while writing my previous comment
The title should be UNCOMFORTABLY HAPPY :-)
@Siddy: Waah yaar! Great idea.. lol. I'll use this. Thx!
Comfort is over-rated.
Progress was never achieved by people who were 'comfortable' with how things were.
You don't "have" to be happy if you don't feel it; but just make sure that you don't fall into the trap of being unhappy simply because you are just more comfortable with that feeling.
It's all about taking that first step. Just one.
OMG!
seems lyk u juz tore off pages frm my diary n posted em here...
u have no idea how u juz penned down the exact words goin in my mind... juz dat im nt gud with writing serious stuff!
wonderful!!!
aaj chhupi hui kriti saamne aayi hai!!
lol!!!
leouwe u !!
OMG!
seems lyk u juz tore off pages frm my diary n posted em here...
u have no idea how u juz penned down the exact words goin in my mind... juz dat im nt gud with writing serious stuff!
wonderful!!!
aaj chhupi hui kriti saamne aayi hai!!
lol!!!
leouwe u !!
Hey nice blog gal..esp the side pics.
@Chhapan Chhuri: Leouwe u too!! :D
@Mez: Thanks a lot! :)
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